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Anticipation of something happening: a confident belief or strong hope that a particular event will happen
(Encarta® World English Dictionary [North American Edition] © & (P) 2009 Microsoft Corporation.)
I would be lying if I didn’t admit to having major expectations after WLS. Weight loss, of course, is the major one but in my mind’s eye there are others as well. I want to be able to participate in life more. I’ve started back going to movies and I’m getting out more. My focus on weight loss has always been from a life standpoint. What I mean is I had this procedure to be able to live the life I want to live and not be a skinny girl. I want to live a full, participatory life! I want to be able to travel and see the world. I want to love on my hubby and my family. I want to live life!!!
What I failed to anticipate was OTHER people’s expectations. As we are coming to the close of school, one of the main comments I keep hearing is “When we come back from summer, we won’t hardly recognize you!”
I realize these people mean well but I’m beyond frustrated with their projecting their expectations on me. Of course, I will be still working on weight loss this summer and I know that some of the commenters mean well but I am also aware there are some who are waiting to see me fail. Talk about pressure I don't need!
Big Beautiful Diva would have internalized it all and ate those feeling. For a while, it did bother me but I've come to realize several important facts.
- This is my life and I'm going to live it in the way the makes ME happy and my family proud!
- I can accept the fact there will be those who want to see me stumble. It's their issue and not mine. I can't take it personally!
- There will be time that I will stumble. I'll get back up and keep going.
- I will continue to surround myself with positive, inspirational people.
- Needing support does not make you weak. It only means you are strong enough to admit you need help.