I finally got my surgery date! It is on June 27 and I am just a big bundle of everything! Excited, nervous, excited. I know this is going to be a momentous occasion but I’m ready to gain control of my life and it is time to take those big steps.
I’ve been catching up on my Oprah magazines (no comment) and I found this interesting article. It was an article on the mental of weight loss. One thing that you could do was write a letter to the two parts of yourself, skinny you and not skinny you. Say whatever you think those parts of you would say to the other. At first, I thought it was crazy but then I sat down and wrote my first letter:
To My Big Beautiful Diva,
This is the Skinny Girl Inside and we need to talk. I am coming to you from a place of love and I love you enough to tell you this has to stop. I think it’s great that you have finally realized that you need help and are taking the steps to get it. I’m so proud of that you are working to overcome your barriers and letting your light finally shine.
I’m glad you are starting to see how special you are. You’re smart, driven and beautiful but for so long, YOU didn’t see it. I heard the thoughts where you didn’t think you weren’t good enough, smart enough or pretty enough because of your size. You didn’t wallow in self-pity but the doubt lingered. You should never doubt how wonderful you are and all the great things you have achieved and will achieve.
In a few short weeks, our lives are going to change and this person (me!) who has been hidden inside is going to come out, ready to conquer the world! We, my friend, are going places. We have a rough road ahead but we will come out just fine!
Love and smooches, boo!
The Skinny Girl Inside
I know it’s not long and dramatic but to actually give voice to my mental thoughts was cathartic. I came to realize I love me some me and both parts of me is going to work this out and become one healthy, happy person!