So first of all, let's update. So far I've lost 40 pounds and people are starting to see the difference. I'll admit, the attention is nice and intimidating. In spite of popular beliefs, I'm actually a rather shy person and people who know me but don't KNOW me and comment on the weight loss tend to freak me out some. I can't help but wonder how they'll be after the surgery!
Today's post is my attempt to focus on some of those feelings. I'm used to be the "behind the scenes" person. I'll make sure it's done right and I want the recognition but I don't have to be in the spotlight. Making such a drastic physical change is forcing me out of my comfort zone and I feel more than a little anxiety about it. I can honestly say I haven't felt the urge to eat the emotions. Instead, I've been writing and book reviewing. Channeling that anxiety into something else helps a lot. I'm also gardening! LOL OK by gardening means I grow tomatoes and peppers on my porch. Want to see?
They are bigger now and I'm starting to get baby tomatoes and peppers but I'm just thrilled I haven't killed them! I see now how people say gardening is relaxing because I enjoy going out in the evening and tending to my plants. My doctor says she wants me to work on reducing my anxiety by taking 30 minutes a day to relax so this is becoming a part of my relaxation routine. I know eventually I'll have to learn to deal with the attention but not today. I'm going out on the porch enjoy this unseasonably cool Sunday afternoon and talk to my plants!