Saturday, September 25, 2010

EatingWell: Beware: Misleading Ingredient Names Explained

EatingWell: Beware: Misleading Ingredient Names Explained

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Poof!

13 pounds gone! Poof! I was delighted and stunned. Only 19 more to go. Yay, team!
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Monday, September 20, 2010

Fear and the way it clouds perception.

I have a GP appointment today to take care of presurgery blood work.  I can't help but think of how I'm afraid that the doctor will find something wrong.  I'm not a hypochondriac but at times I feel pretty close.  I have always been the worrier, the "what if" person.  I have a tendency to think logically about things to the detriment of my mental well-being.  At the same time, I don't want to burden others with my worries so I bury them inside. 

I realized in the wee hours of the morning that I am afraid.  I want this so bad yet the idea of change scares me to death.  Once again the "what ifs" have come back.  You hear the stories about people can't handle it when there is significant weight loss.  I started to wonder if I could.  After reading this article and this post, I realize, at least in the African American community, the weight is a protection of sorts from the scary world, the unwanted attention.  I want to be seen for the bright mind I have, the wit that comes out sometimes not for the physical.  I learned early to avoid the unwanted attention when I began to develop because I wasn't ready for it.  I thought hiding in the weight would basically make me invisible. 

Now I am facing the very real and very literal coming out of my shell.  I can't help but wonder will I be able to handle the extra attenetion.  I know people will notice the weight loss right off but once the body shape really starts to change, I know there will be other types of attention, less than flattering attention.  Idea, frankly, scares me.  It seems like it would be so much easier to say hidden in this fat suit and allow it to be my shield.  I guess this is a true test, my way of becoming the change I want to see.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Certifiable? The jury is still out.

The psych eval was today and it was a complete session in confusion. I did a ton of paperwork and tests that kept asking the same questions. After a while, I started feeling nuts. In the back of your mind, you start to wonder if you are answering the questions right. They were true/false but some were so absolute that it was hard to say true/false. After that was a conversation with the doctor but he didn't really ask any life-altering questions. I will get a printout of the result so this will be interesting.
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Sunday, September 5, 2010

Death to March Aerobics and Random Sunday Thoughts

It's a lovely Sunday and I decided to get this down before the day gets sucked away.   We tried the march aerobics DVD and nearly passed out on the floor!!  LOL  It was funny and insane.  The guy who developed the video was a drum major for Jackson State University.  For those not familiar with black college bands, it's all about the show and the music.  The drum majors could perform moves like this:



So you can see how hilarity ensued!  After we picked ourselves off the floor, we decided to break out the "Walk Away The Pounds" DVD instead! LOL!!  The video might be something I'm willing to try once I get in better shape but not now!  If you are interested in a copy, let me know!

So on one of the blogs I follow "The Black Girl's Guide to Weight Loss" had an post about fat, low fat and fat free foods.  Can we just say I was stunned?  Of course, I looked into this myself after reading what Erica wrote .  In my effort to lose weight and become more healthy, I am trying the clean eating.  All that means is knowing what's in your food, less processed foods, more fresh foods.  In other words, cook at home! LOL  After reading labels, you come to realize that the full fat foods are healthier by way of knowing what you are getting and just reduce how much you eat or limit the number of times you eat them.  I mean, what is some of this stuff in the fat-free foods?  There are ingredients I've never heard of and can't pronounce.  It may just be me but I like knowing what I'm eating!

Example:  I am an ice cream junkie and I love Breyers:  Now this is Breyer's Strawberry Ice Cream.  Look at the ingredients.   There are 6!  SIX!!!

Now let's look at the fat-free! It's strawberry also but check out the ingredient list .  There are EIGHTEEN ingredients listed and you only save 20 calories!  OMG!!    I personally would rather save the calories and have a scoop of the regular ice cream. 

We always assume that eating fat-free is good for us but not at the expense of the random ingredients!  Who knows what havoc they wreak on our systems.  They may even be part of the reason the weight is not moving!  Read the labels, folks, and get out there and become more knowledgeable about what we are putting in our bodies!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Step One and Good Intentions

My psychological appointment is set for next Wednesday.  I'm really curious to see what they are looking for exactly.  I mean, can you tell in one visit if someone is nuts or not?  I'll post what happens when I go to see him.  His name is Dr. Jolly and I find that rather disturbing!  LOL

The 1800 calories is easier than I thought it would be.  My biggest problem is I'm actually eating around 1500-1600.  I'm eating constantly but I'm choosing better things so the calories are not there.  Keeping count of the calories has really made me aware of the emptiness I had been filling up on.  Now I wish I was near Madd Heather so I could check out that yoga class she has been raving about! :)  Instead, there is a class called "March Aerobics" that I've been interested in.  I have the DVD so I'm going to give it a shot and if I don't kill myself in the living room, I may actually give the class a try!

Have a wonderful and blessed day!!!