Tuesday, August 24, 2010

So It Begins...

The seminar for the surgery was very helpful.  I was reassured by the small number of people in my group (5!) and my case worker is really down to earth and really  helpful.  The physical took place yesterday afternoon and hubby was there.  He got a chance to ask his own questions and he says that he feels better now about the whole thing.  The program is really strict but has all types of supports in place for you and your family.

I have to lose at least 35 pounds before the surgery.  My date hasn't been scheduled yet, I'm just in phase one.  This includes blood work and the psychiatric evaluation.  My primary physician also has to clear me but that shouldn't be a problem considering she's the one who completed all my insurance papers in the the first place.  This means I'm back on Spark People, tracking my calories because they have the most wonderful counting tools that I can use online and on my blackberry!!   The nurse practitioner has placed me on a 1800-calorie diet.  After looking at the list, it's seems to be really doable.

This has suddenly become so real!  Sitting in the seminar listening to other women share the issues they have had with weight really hit home because they UNDERSTAND.  Anyone who has to fight with weight understands.  What bothers me is the fact a lot of people think surgery is the "easy" way.  It's not!  Do they know how much it took to get to this decision?  Can they even understand the weight of failure that comes from trying over and over again to lose weight, especially to someone who does not fail?  Do they even understand how much is required after the surgery?  They haven't even begun to feel the emotional toll.  This was not an easy decision but a necessary one.  It really boils down to surgery or die and I'm not ready to go yet.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Sunshine On My Shoulder.

I must say today, I understand that I am truly blessed.  There are so many other things that could be plaguing me but I am happy.  Every now and then, a moment of bliss comes over me and I understand that everything is pretty good.  Sure, I'd love more money and the big house and the fancy car but my life is good and I happy for it.  Tomorrow is Friday, ya'll!  I hope you had a good work week!!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Hell is Hot!!

Today is the official first day of school with the kids and so far, so good.  My room, however, has no air!!  When we came back last week, the repair people were notified but as we are aware, no one came to fix it.  This is irritating and uncomfortable to say the least.  I've been sweating like a grilled pig and pissed off is a nice word for my attitude.  I was trying to come from a place of positivity but that rolled down my back with the sweat!!!

I only have one more class to go and one of my co-workers is letting me use his room so we won't all suffocate and die.  I'm just trying not to be extra bitchy about the whole thing but I can't see that happening in the near future!!!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Summer Vacation Is Over!

Right now, I'm sitting in staff meeting, grumpy and sleepy. Today is the teachers first day back and I could really use a caffeine infusion. They are feeding us breakfast and lunch today, which is stunning because it never happens.

This is brief and there may be more later so hopefully everyone is having a good day.
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Versatile Blogger Award!!

I must say that this was a total surprise but I am so thrilled. Thanks goes out to Michelle at http://ruminationsasiuncoverthewomanwithin.blogspot.com/. I must say that we have a great deal in common and the more support on this journey, the better! Losing weight is one of the hardest things I've ever undertaken but the community I'm finding is really making this journey much easier!

Now here are the rules of this award:

1. Thank the person who gave you the award.(see above!)

2. Share seven things about yourself.

3. Nominate 15 newly discovered blogs.

4. Let your nominees know about the award.

My seven things:

1. I am an accidental teacher. I didn't go to school to become an educator. I majored in Biology and avoided education as long as humanly possible. I enjoy the profession but not the politics.

2. I'm working on my Ed.D in Adminstrator Leadership. It's been a LONG time since I've been in school but I love the challenge and I've enjoyed making new friends.

3. I'm actually starting on my own original fiction. The idea of writing something that major really intimidates me! LOL I do love the story idea I have in my head though!!

4. I've be married for almost 11 years and we are looking at adoption in the near future.

5. I love the fall and football season. The fall because we get a break from this heat and football because it's football! GEAUX SAINTS!!!

6. If it wasn't for one of my friends, I wouldn't have started this blog. It has been a real eyeopener to me. I used to keep a journal all the time and I'm discovering by letting the emotions out, I'm not eating them!!

7. I have a weird sense of humor. I just don't know what makes me laugh! I love funny movies, corny jokes and silly stories. Maybe this is why my students and I get along fairly well, my brain is 16 sometimes!!

My 15 suggestions:

I won't go into much detail but I'll share the links and let you see for yourself the awesomeness!!

http://chroniclesofthechaotic.blogspot.com/ (My dear friend)




http://blackgirlsguidetoweightloss.com/ (You don't have to be black or a woman to enjoy this blog.)











Check them out and I hope you enjoy!

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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

The Final Countdown!

My weight management seminar and physical are on August 23rd. I both nervous and excited! This is the beginning of such a life changing moment. Trying to keep prayed up and holding on to faith and friends!
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