The seminar for the surgery was very helpful. I was reassured by the small number of people in my group (5!) and my case worker is really down to earth and really helpful. The physical took place yesterday afternoon and hubby was there. He got a chance to ask his own questions and he says that he feels better now about the whole thing. The program is really strict but has all types of supports in place for you and your family.
I have to lose at least 35 pounds before the surgery. My date hasn't been scheduled yet, I'm just in phase one. This includes blood work and the psychiatric evaluation. My primary physician also has to clear me but that shouldn't be a problem considering she's the one who completed all my insurance papers in the the first place. This means I'm back on Spark People, tracking my calories because they have the most wonderful counting tools that I can use online and on my blackberry!! The nurse practitioner has placed me on a 1800-calorie diet. After looking at the list, it's seems to be really doable.
This has suddenly become so real! Sitting in the seminar listening to other women share the issues they have had with weight really hit home because they UNDERSTAND. Anyone who has to fight with weight understands. What bothers me is the fact a lot of people think surgery is the "easy" way. It's not! Do they know how much it took to get to this decision? Can they even understand the weight of failure that comes from trying over and over again to lose weight, especially to someone who does not fail? Do they even understand how much is required after the surgery? They haven't even begun to feel the emotional toll. This was not an easy decision but a necessary one. It really boils down to surgery or die and I'm not ready to go yet.